Journal

NEBRASKA

The whole of Nebraska
‌            was sky. Reeds bending
‌                       to sky, red tails
‌                                  drifting, darkness inking,
‌                                            white lines breaking
sky.

The horizon surged
‌            in silent streaks, the storm
‌                        so distant. Heat unheard. Driving,
‌                                  we kept driving. Lightning
‌                                            disappeared as sky
unfolded

to sky unfolded
‌            to new light falling. Meteors
‌                        scattering dust. We fell
‌                                  silent, the shower of earth-
‌                                             bound bodies
filling with heat.

Natalie Callum is a writer and poet living between St. Louis, Missouri and Wyoming. When she is not writing, she can be found outside free-climbing and exploring with her much beloved husband. Her work is forthcoming in Amethyst Review. 

My Grandmother Comes Back as Springtime

Her eyes open—bluebells and gentian
her cheeks shine apple blossom pink.

Her toes uncurl into petals on the grass.
She raises her arms—her hands unfurl.

She branches, white-crowned sparrows on each finger.
Leaves tiny as squirrel paws filter the breeze.

Her breath, sweet with butterflies and foraging bees,
powders sunbeam-slanted trees.

In the warmth of her hair, honey, pollen
and nectar the perfumes she wears.

I want to catch her in my arms and tell her
I love her—but she’s unmade the bed of herself—

now she’s rolling foothills filled with forests
skittering and lumbering with minks, and bears.

How can I entice her to stay?

But shh—she’s whispering a story
in windsong and meadowlarks.

The Old Shoe Remembers

wheat sweeping in great
undulations—how the horn
of the train a mile away whistled
in the middle of the night.

Our old square house squatted,
paint peeled away by dust storm after
dust storm, the heart of the house broken
beyond repair, doorknobs falling off, the floor

raising its splinters into my farm girl bare feet.
How we kids were stacked into one bedroom
like cordwood—our cots made of two-by-fours
one on top of the other lining the walls.

I sit here thinking of my mother’s
face—worn brown, cracked
as those floorboards—one baby or another
latched onto her long sorry breasts.

How my teacher said I might have
a book to read but I didn’t dare
take it home—afraid it would end up
in the pot-bellied stove for kindling

and how in the dull evenings
the radio, its nubby brown cloth
covering the speaker, broadcast
Bach and Stravinsky.

Dale Champlin is an Oregon poet with an MFA in fine art. She is the editor of Verseweavers. Dale has poems published in Willawaw, The Opiate, Visions International, San Pedro River Review, catheXis, and elsewhere. In 2019 She published her first collection The Barbie Diaries. Three collections, Isadora, Callie Comes of Age, and Andromina, A Stranger in America are forthcoming.

I have places to go but don’t

I’m sitting in a soft green chair
by the hissing fire with Mickey
who is dying, curled against my feet.
My fingers rub his neck still warm,
his ribs still rising slowly, falling,
his fur stringy and soft. A lesion
on his liver. Ammonia builds in his blood.
Mickey cares not about science.
Muscles weaken. No appetite,
he’s been starving slowly for weeks.
I carry him in his little donut bed.
Some day soon, maybe today, his heart will stop.
He never complains. That’s the nature of dogs
about pain. Blues yodel, yes, he’ll join the chorus
when the siren calls but not today.
In the fireplace scraps of redwood siding
torn from my house after 80 years,
attacked by sun rain insect until
finally succumbing, broken down,
burn now hot and fast and bright.
Mickey still breathes. I sit.
I have things to do,
places to go but don’t.

Joe Cottonwood has repaired hundreds of houses to support his writing habit in the Santa Cruz Mountains of California. His latest book is Random Saints.

Whispers of Things I Don’t Understand

I cruise hours of the night
wondering what it means to be human,
to follow narrow one way roads;
my fingers trace disappearing veins,
or are they arteries, on the underside
of my wrists. I can never remember
which of these thin lines runs, like me,
away from the heart, on the gravel path
of lost loves and regrets,
untold wants and options not taken.
The darkness is full of moments
others say matter; everything
is muttered in foreign tongues,
rolling r’s and guttural a’s.
I have lost my ear, my words,
and the map whose trails
would take me to an alpine plateau
where these languages are spoken,
where nighttime air is a pillow,
and every utterance is a wisdom gift
wrapped in a thin blanket of joy.
But tonight the route is elusive,
I can only find thin blue lines,
unpaved byways leading
to unknown destinations.

Because We Are Nomads

What traveler would dare to tell her tale –
even in her middle years, pausing
as if the road ended here on this ledge
instead of beneath some distant shaded oak,
as if looking back were ever safe, when the way
ahead is masked, unmarked.? As if Time were willing
to sit down on his heels and gnaw a bit of bone.

And who would care if not those whose love
she bore upon her back like household goods
hauled across summers, winters, ice and mud,
over grassy paths and roads of dust and stone?
When the stakes have been pulled up,
when the children have gone to hide and seek
in the fields of corn, who would be left to listen?

The land is rutted with the tracks of wagons
that passed, shuddering under loads of hope.
At mileposts, museums have hung up scraps of the past:
totems to an imagined possibility of return; the walls
are papered with photos of people we never knew
(or did know, once, before they grew to be somebody else)
names written in the invisible ink of blood.
History sings the Siren’s song: “Turn back. Turn back!”

How do we resist the call? How do we pass
through nightmares of what should not be told?
We gather together beside moving waters, lean
into one another, arms braced like tent poles,
our voices rising to form a canopy above us.
Spirit eyes gleam outside the edges,
as one by one we lay logs of memory upon the fire.
Visions flare, smoke clouds the darkness.

The smoke stings our eyes, but we sit
—still we sit — telling down the long hours
until dawn comes to set us free, until light brings forgetting.
We shed our blankets, heavy with the smoke
and nighttime smells, rinse our faces in icy water,
throw dirt upon the smoldering coals and set out
to morning’s fresh chorus of birdsong…
‌                                                  because we are nomads…